ࡱ> 3 ;jbjb^^ vh<h<5ldddd8 d8XZZZZZZ, f  X D DX r V@DL4Hdd , D8 Y YD  Akha Chronicles Chapter 3: Maesai Plaza Guest House Summary: The Guest House was where I lived my life from, my comings and goings as my work towards the Akha took shape. This vision was slow in building and the Guest House was a place of slow transition, friendship and the building of history. From the Guest House I saw hard times but also the building of hope in the face of it all, as I launched out to villages and the Akha hinterlands. For many years it became home, a small tiny wooden room cabin on the hillside overlooking the Maesai River and Burma. Railing Seat There was this one seat at the end of the railing near the tv overlooking the street there at the Maesai Plaza. I sat there many a time. How many times? Just a few times. A nice solid wood bench. Warn boards, ants coming for a drink, early morning and afternoon light. From my railing side bench seat I often got a view of the Akha coming and going, with their baskets on their backs. Men, women and children as well. Many of them I know. I usually sat at the railing for coffee and breakfast in the days when the Guest house kitchen ran, and then later I sat there jut to view the road, relax, think, puzzle, and also pass the time when there wasn't much money. Course I always saw things to catch my fancy, lizards racing on the tree, snakes in the klong, rats running along as if in secret, wrecks on the road right there. Sometimes there were lizards, the small ones, and on hot days they would come down the post and onto the railing and dart to my table where they would come carefully to where my soda pop bottle stood and lick the condensation off the bottle. The pump below the floor ticked its way along like it did for years, heaps of worn out pumps next to it. I used to take the cast pulleys and break pieces out of them for filing into dies that I could cast silver things with. Yes, the enforced days of an artisan. I think of all the days, years they were. There was the old white haired man who always waved, had always a big smile. He even gave me a ride once when he saw me walking back from the postoffice outside town. And one man always passed on his bycycle from up the street, he was like retired, very polite and pleasant, somehow I always thought of him as retired official of some kind. The klong was sometimes full and sometimes low. Kids came down it sometimes, looking for tiny fish which they caught and put in the baskets they wore. I wondered how they kept from cut feet, so many people threw glass carelessly around. The flowers and bushes along the klong next to the road the owner never paid much mind to. I often thought of donating him some, but seldom the money, and nobody would water them anyway. So it was a scramble of bushes and trash off the road. Eventually we got concrete, but for many years it was just a rutted dirt road. Funny but once you do get concrete then one can hardly remember when it wasn't like that. I remember distinctly that it was dirt for a long time though because there were potholes the motorbikes always hit with a clack. And sometimes as I sat there I saw old friends come back I had not seen in a long time, walking down the road to the Guest House. Or best of all was to see the mailman come, cause this happened everyday and sometimes I got letters and parcels. I also sat here waiting for phone calls or going through grief when I was broke. To hold the project together there were many months of poverty and waiting, it was either do that or give up. Changes at the Plaza over time: Some of the more pleasant people from the guest house are gone as well as some of the most unpleasant. The Chinese Akha girl is gone. Nati is gone. Booma, who married Charlie is gone except to come back for visits. Twammy got married to the really nice Japanese fellow and moved to Rangoon. Lacie got married to Krajn Kolf and is in Belgium as well. The desk Burmese woman moved out after the flood. She forgot to tell guests to move their motorbikes. Mingeh is gone. Oh there have been lots over the years. The thing I like about Mae Sai Plaza Guest House is that it is much like a big park. The many steps, levels and walks always provide some private place to sit and look, think. Burma and the town across the way are always a good back drop of pleasant disorder, of a view which one can watch without distraction, especially at night. I think fondly of watching it from the friendship and bench on the balcony of room 28. Those were good days. The Kachin Gal is gone. Boogah is there. Canary girl is there. And a few others. The one guy who came back was the Shan guy who got caught smuggling cigarettes. The other side is quiet now since the war, as well as Maesai in general. Not much life at all save on weekends. Then lots of Thai tourists come up. I wondered for a long time just what possiblility there could be here of a war in this region. Since the war, on the other side Burma formalizes the border with pill boxes and a stout barbed wire fence put up in one day. Be interesting to see what will come about next rainy season when flood waters tangle with barbed wire and rip out all those posts. With all the dirt and higher concrete the Thais have brought in, much of the surplus water will have to find a way out on the Burma side, making their flooding worse this coming summer some five months from now. The lights on the other side are more regular now, during a simultaneous power outage one evening on our side and theirs I realized they are now running on Thailand's electricity, which I confirmed the next day. That is probably the future of the Keng Tung region as well. Keng Tungs hydroelectric system is small. Across the street from the Maesai Plaza there is the Beer Bar house, now a store, the girls home from somewhere. Hom Dwan used to work here at the guest house but is now gone. Not a clue where. Across the street the big newer house that is finished on the outside with a ridiculous ugly collection of left over tile. Still empty. The old couple there before used to really carry on and chase that little boy with the switch. But the old couple left, unable to finish it and the owner of a noodle shop took it over and did a lot of work but it remains solitary and empty most of the time. A Thai house of Usher. Also the floor is below the new road, and too low, and the water comes in during floods from the river. Next door to that place is the plain concrete two story structure of a Japanese boy's investment on behalf of the daughter. The second story has no windows in it and the first is hardly what you would call finished either. Then all her brothers got aids and died. Now above me on the hill is a lookout point, high spire like for tourists from Bangkok. Joe still has his guest house. The Beer Bar with scar face still runs. Scarface moved it down the street into the neighborhood, but then Scarface up and died. The Maesai Guest House. A Thai fellow ran this guest house. He had a big bike and a reputation for being rude but never bothered me any. His proper looking wife never seemed to get wet on songkrahn festival, how she did it I dont know. Their guest house was near the water at the very end of the road, hard to get to and no room to turn around. Maesai Plaza Back at the maesai plaza guest house, for me now, is like living aboard a docked ship. No need to set sail yet the sea, the life and the activity are all down below when you need them. I must say, the noise is greater from the street than it was in the past but all things change. In the evening the street goes still early on. Now however there are a number of beer bars that don't stop and so the noise from them, motorcycles and so forth, carries on. The owner of the guesthouse was an old Chinese man. His sons ran the place now and he hardly showed up except when the place filled up just so he could see it really swing into action. But that was rare. He didn't seem so happy a guy and neither did his wife. He used to lecture the girls stearnly for being lazy or careless and then they would all cry. But he was good to them and they got paid regular and ate their share of food for not doing much. The Thai economy was up and down and maesai pulsed in return, but mostly the Plaza was very slow in these days. Instead Chiang Khong was getting its share of guest houses. The Owner's Wife The owners wife sat a couple tables back away from the TV, resting against one arm, eyes closed. Tired these days. The old man was building an apartment for the waddling son at the end of the porch. Very nice job. Then he never agreed to live there and it sat empty. As the owner got older, he became the more gentle, while the wife always had her hand quickly up and out for money, when ya gonna pay? She never had anything else to say to anyone in any circumstance which I ever saw her. I figured it was a pretty empty way to chart and plan ones life. Tin Tin She was the Burmese book keeper. Pleasant, not always real smart but good hearted these days and protective of my mail. My friend Zera does not like her and ragged on her but I told her not to mind. She worked a while for Joe at his KK guest house next door but he charged her to drink coffee, gave only one free meal a day and then they could only eat the bread heals, not any slices. Course everyone knows the guy to be about a little on the stingy side. Boogah Boogah was an attractive Akha girl if she wouldn't have that constant frown on her forhead. I am often put to thinging what she could be thinking of. Changes in her life? Some transient relationship here? She is stern when she talks like it takes effort to push the words out through whatever is making that frown. This defines her personality much of the time. Canary Woman Boogah was a friend of the canary woman, who preferred to tell stories to her friends in the late of the evening. In groups of people there is always a canary woman, don't know what they call the men. But a woman who repeats and clarifies and interprets the stories, retelling them each time with a different twist or detail pulled out. Thus was the canary woman. Canary woman because she had a look on her face that just brought that name to mind, like a bird. And she would spend the whole evening sitting at one of the guest house tables, she worked here, and telling stories to the other girls, things she had heard, things she had seen and things that must be. Krijn and I and the ants and the lizard climbing wall Sometimes life was very slow. So slow that Krijn and I spent hours watching while tiny ants carried a whole lizard up to their hole in the rocks on the wall, and cut pieces off it and took them in the nest. We never saw what they finally did with all of it but watched them for hours. These big guys came out, big ants that is, and maybe not so different from humans, they seemed not so much use. Other ants would ride on them while they bumped around doing mostly nothing and they never once leaned into the load with their enormous heads and strength. Krijn kolf He was from Belgium, married to Lacy out of the blue. He was a solid chunky guy, short temper but good heart and smile and loved to tell stories back and forth. He liked Mo Mo Gee as a worker at the guest house but I myself was quite happy when she didn't work there any more. Dead Lars There was a fellow named Lars who died at the guest house. Mark the American disappeared. Joe said that someone tried to get into his room after he disappeared. He said that he WASNT found for several days because when they found him his body was all swollen up, his arms all swollen up and that he was cremated after ending up at the hospital morgue. It would have been nice to know what did happen. Nick makes it sound like they fished his body out near the Riverside right after he fell in. Nick, for some reason, volunteered the following, that they were arguing, that he was telling him to keep his voice down because he was speaking in English and the Burmese soldiers would hear near to the canyon mouth where they were at and that Mark was stoned and staggered backwards and fell down below to the rocks and into the river and that he Nick, raced down the riverside to get help fishing him out. I had seen mark and he was all paranoid and strung out on drugs and claimed he killed Lars who died a few days before and was found in his room. But then I had to leave for Surin to buy some beads and didn't find out that Mark died till I got back. Lots of guys came here, played with drugs and the drug game and died one way or the other. Burmese man, burmese girl, american Fry from colorado Not all the stories at the guest house were good. Rape There was a fellow named Fry from Colorado buying gems. Late in the evening there was this girl who was from Burma who worked at the bridge. She had been lurred to the guest house by a rather bastard drunk Burmese guy, and overstayed past six oclock. She didn't like the Burmese Guys advances and so went to the American guys room looking for help. He didn't have a clue and the Burmese guy came and pulled her away and he said nothing. The Burmese guy drug her to his room and raped her all night long and this the Japanese neighbor man testified to the next morning but he also said nothing. And this is how I heard of it afterwards. I knew the girl, she was very pleasant and kind, but after that her health went and she looked very bad off of the heart and took poor care of herself and she had many hard times and then I didn't see her any more. The Burmese man went back to the border war in Mae Sot with the Karen and never came back. There was Nali She was a little orphan girl who worked at the guest house. Nati the Lahu girl used to pick on her till she was half crazy so I spoke to her to stop this and then she went to live at the store of the owner and grew up there. lawrence, got to be funny Lawrence used to say that. He lived at the Bagwan Shree Rashneesh's place in India for a while. Was from Florida. Never came back that I could tell. Stayed at Joe's place while he was in town. The Lahu Children In the mountainous jungles of another place there was this family that lived in a village high up where the fog often comes. There were five children. They lived near a river which separated their country from the neighboring one. Now we had lived near this river some two years. Our cabin was perched up on a hillside and I had a good view of the road on the edge of the river below. From my balcony I was able to watch each day as people came to town and then went back out to their villages. For the last year I had watched each day as this one mother went by with her small son and daughter to the town to beg and then out to the jungle where they had a hut each night. The son was about five years old and his older sister eight or nine. Both of them were good children. Because I didnt speak their language I never talked to them but we would often invite them into the restaurant of the Gurest House for a meal of rice and noodles. On occasion I saw an older brother and some younger child as well. Whenever I had the money and the opportunity I would give the mother a bag of rice or some meat. I wished that there was more that I could do for them but helping the poor was often far more complicated than one might think. In this particular case the father was an opium addict and the money the mother and children begged for was seized for this purpose. The mother being left to buy the food before she got back to the hut. Now on one particular occasion as the mother and the youngest son of five and the eight year old daughter headed home, they stopped at the bottom of the guest house near where I was sitting. I had some rice for the mother that day so I was waiting. Upon their arrival I noticed that the girl was limping and also had no shoes. This was particularly bad as this was rainy season and if the feet were always in the mud and water they would begin to turn sore. So was the case with the little girls feet. I took a closer look at her feet and discovered that they were infected especially between the toes. The top of each foot was swollen. Another woman was nearby who spoke Lahu and English, Lacey, and so I asked her to explain to the woman that I would take the girl to the clinic.. This worked. The doctor cleaned her feet and toes the little girl not wincing one time. After she and her mother went home. But that evening it occurred to me that children were old enough to be in school and the next day, if I saw the mother again I would have Lacey ask her if she would like them in school. The mother thought it was a wonderful idea and so consented. The very next day my wife took the children to the market and bought them clothes. That evening the mother came to visit along with her father. the children were very happy, especially since they were now getting to eat good meals all of the time. There were older Lahu girls to talk to. Yet there appeared now a problem with the father. As he did not like the idea it appeared. However after some discussion he agreed to go along with it if they came back to the hut this night for a farewell ceremony. I never saw the children for a week only to see that they had been stripped of their new clothes and the money spent on Opium. They were back in rags. Beneath this immediate practicality, I also learned that there was a history that contributed to the fathers feeling. Some three years earlier some one had come to them and offered them a job for their daughter, and this was common. They would get money every month and she would come back for a visit every now and then. They consented and never saw their daughter again. Understanding their grief I contented myself to give the mother food whenever I saw her and the children a meal on occasion. That was the best I was able to do and some six months later I saw them no more. Remembering that they had been asked to move by the Burmese army from their border dwelling to some new location. The mother was a kind looking woman with a turban wrapped around her head and a tired and sad look to her. Just the same she often had a quick and soft smile. The father was a quaint scarecrow of a man with the yellow look of opium and a soiled baseball cap of light blue. Families must raise their children as they wish, because we can not replace their children when they loose them, no matter how good our intention. Tin tin beats girl Tin Tin was dating this Japanese guy, but one night she woke to the door being open to her room and he was gone. She went looking and found that he was in the Lahu girl's room making love to her so she kicked him out and beat the girl who was gone the next day back to Burma. Tin Tin's sister later came to work, years later. She was very beautiful and a Canadian man she liked very much. Tin Tin got very angry and her and her Japanese boyfriend insisted that the man pay them money if he wanted to date her. In the end they beat the girl very bad and the owner moved her back to the shop where she stayed. Before she left I saw she had many big bruises all over her body. The welding salesman He sat down at the other table getting or staying drunk. Now he had a little silver blue car. I hadnt seen his akha mistress in a long time. She never looked too healthy. He came up from Bangkok. Sales were ok. He also had a wife that left for Taiwan with his kids and I think that is what was in the amber fluid in the bottle. His eyes were always puffy, and it seemed he had made for himself a sad life. Sad lives are never helped to get better by alcohol by what I can see. The operator should be the first to know this. Singapore curly haired man He often came to the guest house. Was big mouthed expert on everything and loud. Whores came to behind room 28 and he was first to go, then the rest of the japanese, and these bitches were old, man were they old. Maybe it was free, if you can call aids free. Pius He was a catechist who used to work at the guest house. He was the one who told me about how Atturs brothers beat a man to death. He told me the catholics own lots of land in Tachilek. I didn't see him often anymore. No matter what, life on the Burma side was hard hard hard. When the guy across the street broke into Nati's room and tried to rape her while working as the night watchman he tried to down play it. He worked at the desk at the time. Seems everything here is downplayed. No one takes any responsibility. The Owner's Younger Son The owner's older son went to school in Los Angeles. I only saw him once or twice. He was frail, and I don't know where he went. The owner used to come and sit at the one end of the lower section and an old withered man would rub his back for hours while they talked. I had no idea what about, maybe things they knew from years before when they were young. Later the summer of 2001 he was killed in an auto wreck in Bangkok. Chinese whore at guest house, Nati, long haired Akha girl, Japanese wallets, guys laugh There was this chinese girl who worked as a hooker at the guest house. She recruited younger girls to help her with the work load and then took them to Bangkok. One very nice Akha girl fell for it and disappeared. Nati the Lahu girl fell for it too. The gold, the clothes, same boring story. Sometimes the boys who visited her lost their wallets. This included a japanese tourist or two and the long time stay Japanese would chuckle when a new comer fell for her, like if they should tell him or not what her game was. She came back year after year and then no more. Bees and Fish Once I was walking down the walk up in the guest house and some wild bees had built a complete comb on a bush, but just as I got there the working girls were already destroying it and there wasn't yet any wild honey in it. It was common to see the combs high in trees where you couldn't reach them but not so close to the ground. Living things don't stand much of a chance here. Every day the men come with electric cords and chase every fish in the river out of the water. I did laugh when one of the men found a hole in the cord, and it electrecuted him just a little, while he yelled and jumped up and down in the river. I don't know how he got rid of the cord out of his hand be we were all laughing greatly at it. One man went to prison for smuggleing tractors to laos Prison broke him. He came back old and thin. Lost the tractors and all the money. He would talk to the owner often. Sad to see life do that to a person. The good in the world is not so common, the tragedy and what breaks the backs of those who are not wary, is much more common, sure in this part of the world. He had this load of tractors on a boat and made it nearly to Laos when a river patrol caught him, he debated on trying to make it to land or turning back, but the patrol boat had a big gun, so he decided to turn back and he lost all the tractors and did many years in prison. Fifty Baht She was a shan woman who loved the guys, a guesthouse maid, took a lot of customers. Finally left. The other girls said she only charged fifty baht. An old japanese man He used to come to guest house. He learned Burmese while here in the war. He had a young shan or Akha wife, often they had harsh talks and though she got lots of money from him she cried often. It wasn't just getting money, it was holding on to it and coping with all the family people and everyone else that put incredible pressure on these girls. The men knew little about this and the girls suffered a lot in what should have been happiness otherwise. Their families were always more greedy and selfish than they were. The japanese guys came a lot to this guest house One guy, he had glasses. He liked to go to the brothels as most of them did, and screw his brains out, one here for thirty minutes, then downstairs for another beer and another there for thirty minutes. Dead Tuna. Thats what he said, like screwing a dead Tuna. I take his word for it though I have never been in bed with a live Tuna let alone a dead one. Hey, maybe it was his accent? Dead in Tuva? He knew some love in Tuva? Could be. Who knows what could happen in a Tuva winter. The idiot who got himself stabbed Loved to race his bike down from the left side of the street here to his house over there fifty meters away. Maybe it was an erection? Who could tell. Guys and their machines. Anyway he got himself in a bar fight and was stabbed in the chest, which he reovered from. Socks Once the maid came to the room and saw that I had hung socks up near the top of the window to dry. She objected saying that this was a bad idea for whatever reasons. I only laughed, turned to walk out the door and slammed my head into the low door frame. Rm. 28 Balcony Sitting on the balcony of my cabin with Attur in the late fternoon of one of the most beautiful pleasan days we have had here. I look straight across at the hills in Burma. A very short distance. No more than about 200 yards. Lush green, babab palms, trees, old houses, rusty roofs, a temple, a cemetary, smoke drifting over it all from a charcoal mound some where. Poror appearance but a chorous of voices drifts across and up to our hillside perch. A whole $95 a months for this view. Room 28 Plant Propigation: Always looking for something in the off hours I started propigating those plants with the fleshy green leaves in a planter box behind my room and there were soon gobs of them. Then I began by tilling up a tiny plot of ground barely three feet square next to my room against the fence. I put in melons. But they were no sooner up than a thai man came with the owners son and dug a big hole right down in the middle of them and planted a bottle. So when he left I was enfuriated and dug it up to find wierd little bones in it like that of a chicken or bird in some stupid ritual, so I chucked it, but the melon patch was already ruined. People can be without eyes. Dark side of the moon There was the guy from Canada who gave me some clothes and that tape of course. I never heard back from him. The Balcony He had often sat on that balcony early in the mornings and late into the evenings. So, upon visiting it many old feelings stirred once again in his heart such that it was possible that love for him was not dead. The cabin was perched on a steep hillside more like a cliff, far above the road and from that balcony he could see out across the near river and all the town that lay on the other side which was in Burma. At the moment, the lights in the early darkness of evening had an enchanting aspect to them, as he could only faintly make out the buildings they came from. Possibly they were the lights of many boats at anchor together in a mountainous inlet where the water lay still. Often in the mornings he had thought of them, looking mostly at roofs, as so much of a fishing fleet left high and dry as the tide went out, to float them once again in the evening. In the mornings he had sat together with his wife, he was forlorn to think of it. That was two and a half years gone by and now he felt he really didnt know much about life. She had a look in her eye on one particular evening that stole its way into his heart as an arrow and stayed there like a hook. Then she truly loved him and although he was not a mathematician to weigh or analyze it, that was enough of itself. A love as dew on a leaf. When he considered all the grief that had befallen him since that time he felt as though he had gone to sea a fresh young man and now, not only had he learned the ways of the ship but had also come through a war and survived. The time passed had left its mark and he didnt often like to think of it. Yet somehow being back in this place it was healing to unwrap the thoughts and memories and give them consideration for a moment. You must be gentle of heart with a young woman for as a smaller ship she has tied up next to you and you must be careful not to let the rough seas of life, the blasting gusts of wind buffet your greater ship against her lest hope of heart take on water and she sink below the frothing waves in the inhospitable darkness. In those days he had to leave her behind at home while he settled some business affairs abroad and it happened that upon his return she left his house and married another. When she had left he watched her go in the early morning sun, still golden, as she walked away down the road, not on the higher right side, but on the lower left side, and not as though sure of where she was going but more with a sad gait to and fro which had torn at him to watch more than he cared to remember. Her beautiful peach colored dress belying the sadness of all such moments of humanity. He remembered returning from town to open the door of his house, which did not bother to warn him, to find the place so empty that the paint upon the walls squeaked. The bed was there because it was anchored into the floor. He gazed now out into the deepening darkness. As softly as it had crept up on him he wrapped up the whispers of his heart, that flickered as an oil lamp, and put them away in the folds of a cool and fern shaded, mossy spring nestled with a ripple in the gentle hands of God. Mingeh to the rescue of the Lahu Girl: Mingeh was this Lahu girl who worked at the Maesai Plaza Guest House. Another Lahu girl worked there too. Her name was Nati. She was hot blooded and very talkative and friendly to all the guests, she was small and had long hair, and she would jest some question and then laugh so much with a physical recoil when the customer at the Plaza found out it was a joke she was putting to them. She was just the opposite of Twammy the Akha Christian girl who worked there who came from the missionary village Mallipaco and was very religious and stern in convention. Everyone liked Nati. But Nati could be mean also, her treatment of the little Aboo, the Akha orphan girl, She keeps us all up at nights. Well, once while I was gone to some other place, Mingeh, met a Lahu girl up the street from Maesai Plaza guest house. (I saw her previously and when Nati told of it, I knew who it was, she told me the story, Nati told it with great sadness as something that hurt her deeply, what had come of it all.) Mingeh found out she was being sold so she loaned the girl money to run away home but they caught her and made Mingeh pay 3,000 baht for her involvement. She didnt have the money of course so all the girls at the guest house had to pool the money. That house is still there. Then the girl eventually got shipped, where she is now? Who knows? Nameless. Nati There was this girl from China who was a prostitute and she was really forward and had sex with so many guys at the guest house, especially the chinese and japanese boys, and she got around to stealing wallets also, and she somehow had attraction for Nati. Nati took to following her some time after a very pretty Akha girl had done so and disappeared to some job some where. Soon it became known that Nati was passing herself around quite a lot. An american guy wanted to marry her but she took his two baht gold bracelet and split. Then Joe said she was a temporary wife of some Akha chief up on the hill near town, but finally I heard that she was pregnant and she left town and went north. She was educated, and wanted to finish university. But eventually she came back and I met her on the main street of Maesai, and so I had a long talk with her. I dont think I saw her after that, and that has been several years. Zera, he knew her. He said she went away to university, but soon as I mentioned that I knew she was pregnant, he changed the line by saying he didnt like this girl. It didnt matter to me but I wanted to see his response. He didnt deny it, just didnt like her once he knew what I knew and didnt want to appear to be her friend anymore. I dont say that solely as a criticism of Zera, I know people, even the same people, here on many levels and this was just one level for Zera and I allow people to have different levels because they do and I dont have it in only two boxes black and white and then dump them when the black box fills up. No, fifteen levels at least, and they can have as much in each one as they want, because I want friendship from people as they are and I am an observer first and foremost. Well, the orphan girl has grown up and is still here, fifteen or so now. Still working for the Plaza shop, the chinese family that took her in, and then as I mention in The Landlords Dream I now understand why the connection on the Akha children, how they knew Atturs mother, and all that. At best the guesthouse was hard on all the girls. Plenty of temptations in those boom days, it sits empty now, nearly one hundred cabins. But in those days there was video, good food, late to night, and lots of good conversation. I met so many people living there. Lived a year in room 28, way up on top, oh the stories from the balcony, the movie theatre trucks and so forth, and the guy across the way, and then I moved to room 61 where I lived till this year. Things changed with that, though it was a bigger room. I still have to go get all my plants and I miss the place. Funny how my body feels emotion from memories that I call up when I go back somewhere having moved so much in life. But I must add, that I slept in the bed there, lived in that room, longer than any place in my life. Room 61. Maesai Plaza Guest House. Must be something worth noting in that. Room 61 That is where I lived for so many years, where I finally got some plants around the door, where I made things of silver, read books, stacked lots of stuff, moved out a time or two but always ended back up in room 61 with its bigger floor. I was sleeping there when Khun Sas boys attacked, lots of things like that. Now I had plants outside the door and sun netting over the little porch and on the balcony I had put up blue screen cloth to keep the mosquitos out so I could sleep with the door open and air. The room was full of stuff now and more than one broke down memory, more than one unfinished dream. Besides being a fire trap and hot the place was OK. Occasionally a toka lizard got in the walls and I had to get it out. I just chase them away. Maybe that was because as big and ugly as they are, as loud as they are you can locate them quickly. So I chase them to the next cabin. Had one in my wall above the bed, older and real big, so I chased him out. Then last night there was one running around in the bathroom. I finally put the rug over him, rolled it up and took him down the walk several rooms and let him go. Cats sometimes eat them. Guests would come to me to get rid of the things. I am sure there was a ton of them in all the cabins. Once there was one in the wall over the bed. I pried the panel loose and the lizard ran out, and they run heavy and clumsy with their hooked feet and sipes that cling to most things, and he ran up the wall and across the ceiling till in his haste he fell directly the bed and off into the corner. And then there were rats. In room 28 there was this one that came out from under the bed and across the room to where it woke me up getting into the crackers. So when I chased it it went under the bed. Well the next night I heard it again and so I got up quietly and dropped my quilt over the end of the bed, covering the hole and then took up the clever and went to the table. The rat popped down on the floor and with all haste sped to the where the hole should have been but the quilt was there and that confused it and so it turned around just a little bit slower and went to zip back to the table trying to think of plan B but before it finished the calculation I smote it in half on the floor with the clever. Dangerous place my room, if you arent invited. So last night I woke up after the lizard affair to hear a common visitor, the rat. Well I have put a ton of boxes of rat poison under the sink but they eat them all greedily and come back for more and there are more rats here than you could know what to do with. Well I dont have any food in my room now but I think they come to take photos of the papers on my desk or read this stuff. Well last night one came and was on the desk next to the computer so I threw a spare pillow at the sink so he wouldnt run there first. Then he still hadnt moved from where he was so I jumped up, secured the pillow at one side of the sink, blocking the hole, stuffed my vest in along the back, two rolls of toilet paper and one towel I used to cover the tv. Then I went, turned on the light and got my three pronged sling shot fish spear I had made. By this time he stirred from the papers slowly and made it to the sink, found that a bad deal and dropped onto the floor and into the bath. He had nothing but a one inch tail from bad luck another time. I cornered him in the bath, put my pants and snake boots back on and then finished him off with the spear. He was probably number five in this room not counting all the ones I poisoned. The bath was small and now finally I had gotten the hot water fixed but now the western toilet valve was broke so we had to fill it by hand. I had a fish crock outside on the porch with two fish I got from the market where they sell them for food. All the gold fish got spots on them and died, fungus or something but these big guys did fine. Then my balcony was full of goods that I wasnt using, books from the school, well making tools, a pump, you name it, lots of junk, tools for working silver and other things by hand. Much of that I wasnt interested in fooling with anymore. There is even the outline of a cross in the floor where I dropped a casting die I had made from a pump pulley wheel that I got off one of the junk pumps down stairs. Those were fun crosses and I gave a lot of them away. But now I had a tv and a vcr and a desk and two cabinets and a place for my computer printer and a place to lock things up and a sewing machine waiting to be used, electric of course, a hemming machine, cameras, radio, clothes, rice cooker, tons of books, voltage transformer, fax machine and phone though I had no phone line and this computer and tons of computer gear and a scanner and tons of photos and two fans and gobs of Akha cloth and Akha jackets and medical books and medicine bags for the hills and spare bags etc and lots of burmese books as well and all my old writing compressed into one big stack and one folder of red. A small Bible I got in Hawaii. Well it had been all over the world with me. Was falling apart. Hey the front new testament was loose because I tore it out so I could put it in my passport and people wouldnt know what I was reading in this coffee shop in my folks town salem, called the Governors Cup, because so many Bible thumpers came in there that you couldnt read for a minute without one disturbing you and insisting on a conversation. I had it in Israel during the gulf war where I think that I read it completely through again, was a good time then to have not so much to do and so much time to focus on that and just read. I think people want to meet God but dont know how to get to Him in their lives, people want to meet God here and now. Then the room has oil paints, all the mediums and brushes and the brushes are in a can of water where I left them and they are probably no good now, has been so long. Then I like to oil paint but my mind is not settled these days. So I dont do it because I feel there are important things that I should be doing. A pretty tame room though full of opportunities and potential, mostly there is tons of writing that I dont feel that I am getting done anytime soon enough. Always I try to get closer to the mark. Oh the floor, it has this cheap grey linoleum that has been here since about 93 when the room was new. 92 maybe even. I think I moved out of 28 probably january 92. And then there is the calendar that a fellow off the endangered languages list sent me from lithuania, a claendar of Tibet, written in Lithuanian. A fire extinguisher I bought. Rm 61 Here for seven years now if you didnt count the first winter I spent in rm 28. Rm 28 was really superior view wise, perched up high on the hill but no room inside and always a very long ways to climb up the steps to there. Mainly there wasnt enough room though. However it had a wonderful wood balcony with a view of burma and the road below which I loved for a beer in the evenings. Maybe I should go there more often. Funny, I just lived on the lower level but it was a completely unasthetic reality like a thousand miles away, but only a few hundred feet and I seldom even remembered to visit again to room 28. I had been married there. But we moved to Rm 61 and we split up. I didnt go down to the bridge very much any more. I remember when I first came to Maesai that I hung out on the bridge all the time, especially under the big tree on the Burma side in the shade, just outside the iron gate. A man sold ice drinks there, pepsi, his little daughter in tow. He welded in a shop without eye protection now, big step up and looked old as hell. The burmese med didnt live all that long, hard life. Hard as the road to Keng Tung. Road quality/Life expectancy? But the kids on the bridge went after the pied piper with money and I didnt cut it any more and so I gave it up. They had become more like a mafia any more. They were proof that no matter how much you did for some people they were just plain but ugly. Even the pied piper gave up on it after a while. He must have spent about $50,000 trying to figure that one out. Little Joe got me movies by times like today. He was a little bit responsible because he did work for the government bank in Burma some days, a Shan fellow, always pleasant and trying to feed his family. I got the hemming machine but was going to need someone to show me how to use it. three spools of thread and lots of needles and this and that packed into a little package. Actually I could figure it out but left it like a christmas toy I hadnt taken the time to put the batteries in yet, a project for a boring day. I went out to the flat village last night. Their new well worked fine. I was done there. One could get tired with too many trips to one village. The huts were hot and stifling, unlike the mountains, yet they hadnt learned to modify the hut design to take this into account. One hut caught fire a little bit. I noticed because there was a new one in the dark and then I saw the old one at the old spot was gone. Booti told me that they moved whenever a hut caught fire even a little bit. Bad luck. I would guess. Wouldnt want my dry grass fire bomb even smoking a little. I was getting lots of Akha stuff booted to the internet. I ended up doing all the ideas. The web master did the tweak after about five reminders.He was a long ways away. The afternoon heat was breaking, I caught a shower. Nice time of day now that the heat was dropping. The hot water heater on the wall didnt work. I had the new one to replace it but another toy without batteries just yet. The cold water felt good except in the morning. Winter time two months ago it was too cold. Wires curled out of the old one where they went to ground. The thais never grounded anything. So I did it. My computer needed a ground anyway. Oh yeah that was right, the thais never grounded their computers either. The back panel always had a jolt to it. Nick the black truck guy, came by with some movies since he found out I had a vcr. Couple nights ago Aree came by for a few baht because he was with nick. Got arrested he said, nick got away, the cops said he must be using drugs so he gave them his money. I gave him a thousand baht, and a lift back home to the same village where nick lived. I went to nicks wedding to an Akha girl there years ago and that is when I met Meeh Suur, the Akha girl with her face burned so bad. She fell through a fire ring when she was six. Her father died of a broken heart they said. Then she felt bad about that too. She worked in Bangkok now. I got her a passport. I was waiting to get the money to pay to rebuild her face. $70,000 in the US. Was taking a while. Couldnt get any of my friends to do more than talk about it. Money was a wierd thing. People always looked at the money, not what you could do with it and move on. They thought they always got it, but I think you spend it and if you spend it good the good lord will give you some more. Just my version. Accomplishments, not accounts. Maesai. What kind of town was this border town with its defining bridge. A very short stretch of concrete between two countries, two gates and two ways of thinking just a little above the water but into two very different worlds. It always made me chuckle when tourists came here and said they didnt see any point to go over because $5 was $5. I mean, it was just over there, what could be so different? Tourists were always looking for the virgin thrill. A thrill no one else had ever had. Hey, can you take me to a village where there are no tourist? Hey, how bout the girl on the left in the back, the one no one has slept with yet. Oh yeah, here, 400 baht. And so forth. I was here. I had things to do but that didnt answer if I had stayed here or bogged down here. Sometimes I thought the latter. Not many conversations here. I had things to do with Akha language books, medicine and such when the money for it came in which wasnt often. But lots of dead time and believe it or not, it is not easy to write on dead time. Your gut is looking for things to do for money. Your mouth is tired of guest house food on the tab, and you just wish you could be back in the US doing anything for a good buck for a few days and then come back. But kicking loose wasnt easy, done it a time or two, no matter how hard here, it was always harder to plug back into the US way of doing things where no one ever hurt for anything it seemed, yet happiness was so far off. It had taken me years to learn that my brain had to have a really long run way to take off. I never gave enough time to thought, took a real long time to spin up my main gyro. But when it was up and going I could do real well with new ideas. I had the internet now. Wow. Maesai for years with no communication to anyone that spoke english and wasnt loony. And believe me Maesai had its loonies. Section eights. My rule was that I just stayed the hell away from the foreigners. You wouldnt believe what they came up with. One couple asked me to take the to a village. It rained while we were out and we had to go down some awful muddy trails and by the time we got back to the main road they were cursing me like whores who didnt get paid or didnt get off or something. Oh well. I had to talk to the boss. This room was wood and I was getting so many books in here which I didnt want to loose that I didnt want to see the whole thing burn. Could happen. There was the concrete school building across the street. It was waiting for me but I didnt have the money to pay for it and wanted to buy it anyway. No more renting. I wanted the bills over, somewhere permament, as much as it can be in Thailand. The thais only let us rent this or that even if we buy. Some kid of superior race thing I think. Us inferior foreigners have to pay more for everything. And they talk about us incessantly to the side. Falang, falang, you hear it everywhere you go. Grab that kid, turn him around you joker, hey look dear, there is a Falang. Ah yes Thais. Dont get me started on that one. Everything you did with them was a half load wagon. Maesai. It really was a gateway. North to China and south to Thailand an beyond. Everything came through maesai and it was a good place to sit and watch it all happen. Never a dull street day. You could sit there or over here and still see a lot happen. Different people, different races, ideas, jobs and arrends to tend to. Every imaginable kind of vehicle. And the lowest intensity official checkpoint I had ever seen. That is till the thais decided to bootleg the gate for 50 baht to foreigners. Yeah, something about the IMF. Foreigners must pay to go to Burma. Well I reminded the woman there that it was the THAI bankers who stole all the money and foreigners had nothing to do with it and if it wasnt for the foreigners nothing would work in the country. All the important stuff was foreign maintained, technology be it for cement, computers, cars, plastic, steel. Theyd all still be eating with their hands if it wasnt for the foreigners. Now I didnt like all missionaries but a whole hec of a lot of good hospitals had been built by them whom the Thais went to. You got waited on like a human being there, not like cattle. The nurses didnt say shit about you while you stood there and the receipt said something about there was a God, and He loved you. How odd a concept. Well beat Karma all to hell. I mean you had bad westerners, every place had bad people. But not in thailand. No, they were just shoving a little Karma back to the girl that she had coming. I mean maybe she wasnt even buddist, but that was no excuse. The family couldnt eat so they had the duty to help bring her Karma to her for a few baht. Heck, you could help dose out Karma all day in the Maesai brothels and never visit the same face twice. 400 baht, 500 baht, and up or the cheap version, 300 baht for a short time with a Chow Kow up in one of the rooms. A hill tribe girl I mean. Pay a visit to the toilet to get rid of beer and the trash was full of tiny condoms. God, where did they make them that small. No wonder the girls laughed in spite of the nature of the job. You see, in the west we argue because we disagree. We disagree about what we think is important and what we think is the proper foundation or standard of it all. But this is so far different from over here. We believe there is a standard. We assume it without mentioning it. There is passion. But to these people they can not fathom a standard, anything higher than the meditative self. Your on your own sucker. Hey, try that on for size. In the end it doesnt matter how many girsl you work on the beds in the brothels in Maesai, your standard is to take as much money from using them as you can and build a big air conditioned house and haul your money to the bank in piles which gladly docks it in and send your kids to the good school and wear a big chain and run the Yamaha shop. So what. Yeah, she is looking old but she wasnt like that six months ago when she was 15, you should have gotten here sooner, hey, what about that one over there. Shes new. 2,000 baht but worth it. Oh, hey, high class Thais, they wouldnt be caught dead with a foreigner, means they are a whore, but I wonder why they allow so many brothels in the country if they are so concerned about looking like a whore. Maybe, if they let tons of physicists into the country, set up labs everywhere, they could worry about looking like a physicist. Surely we could find some black plastic rimmed glasses to sell on the street. Man, the car just slammed him like a twinky. Kept on going. Another car stopped, loaded him up like a rag, which I thought he was when I pulled up, and off to the hospital. Yeah, broken neck. Guy in the car couldnt get his foot off the throttle. Hey if you got it flaunt it, so what if its the middle of town. The wife and daughter came. Cry till they shove the amonia at you. None of that here. Just an infigment, well smoke it off tomorrow. Really, the Thais were nice people. I mean they had smiles. I never thought of smiles that way before. Martian chronicles? Maybe. Not even close. I mean smile meant something had occured in your heart. Well, hec. Laurence hadnt been here in a while, but said everything was funny. At least till Jane gave him herpies. But the other guy said he had a small boy in his room doing something. Well enough of those around too. Hey, some guy just couldnt tell where they were going. Cary and Joe. Rambo one and two. The guys that jumped out of the gun flick movies. Well, I never even so much as looked at them any more or said a word. Cary kept cutting gems. Still fat and stupid. Joe kept bouncing over roads with tourists, showing them his kingdom and wondering when they were going to shoot Joe Goes to Burma the action video. Mike, he made his money on money, came to town every now and then. Just sold two houses, got the money at the good end of the market and was happy as hell. Nice guy to talk to. Had a little negative side on the US but some of the things guys went through there he had a right too and after all he had been around a little bit and the world outside the US has plenty of good to offer. Me, I liked Thailand because I helped the Hill Tribe here, but I would never live here in reality as there was no protection for us foreigners, no financial protection, we could never really settle in, could never really own or build anything and occasionally an intelligent conversation was nice. If it wasnt for my work to help people, I wouldnt stay. But mostly they didnt bother us so one could live peacefully for the moment. I didnt mind some superficial pleasantness compared to all the agitated and frustrated people in the US. Maybe Burma was different. I thought about moving there later on. A little more conservative country. Seemed to take things a little bit more seriously. My Cabin March 5, 1995 Life creeps along. I am very settled in now. Back in Room 61. All papers set up in a study. Computer here on the right, writing table;e on the left, the fan buzzing and the street chatter drifting up from below sometimes a little too loud but much quieter than before. The afternoon sun casts itself into my room in rays of golden dust and falls asleep on the floor. My shirt sticks to me a little from the closeness of the room which needs more ventilation. I slept all afternoon carelessly, tired and sore from carrying chests, tables, chairs, stoves and lots of books and papers up the stairs to my room. Outside on the porch, I am going to put a gate and lattice overhead and make a shaded arbor ideal for the afternoons and early mornings and writing. I have work to do in town, by compulsion to make a little money for food. I would like to sell some books and right now I have begun my Horse and Cowboy story, need to do more of the same. Usually I have more than one project going at once. The layers allow me to start quickly, depending on the mood I am in. I also have lots of letters to write and even more language to study. This is a good place to do it all. The ruby business is a little slow for me. I haven't gotten my first sale. A lot of it is a matter of being able to read people and then carefully choose your words, and not too many. Closing the deal is not an easy thing. As far as what I am able to do for the Akha? I have limited that to learning the language better, and speaking with them more. My cabin is so pleasant for me. Everything is close at hand, albeit maybe just a little cluttered, and the bed is luxuriously large, beckoning of past lovers, one who generously wrote "I love you." in the wood next to the pillows. In the rainy season, when it comes, there will be the spraying storms of wind and rain. I sleep peacefully, the noises from the road below a gentle alarm clock. The Two Oil Paintings There were these two oil paintings downstairs in the guest house over the check in counter. The whole place down there was dingy with rags scrawled with writing back in the fast days of tourism. Now the tourist thing was a lot more dead and they just hung there, stained and dirty, the high rafters full of black dust and cob webs. But the two paintings of Akhas werent half bad, wished that I could paint that well. I didnt know who or when they got painted but think they arrived not too long before I did. Used to be the old Chinaman owner would come and crack it all into line till he had all the lazy girls working for all the food they ate. Now they were just lazy. In those days for the first few months I lived in room 28 but now I had moved to a new room on the other end of the whole complex of cabins. Actually the whole place was just a rat trap waiting to go up in flames. And rats we had, they came up from under the sink, rousting about in your room at night. I killed a lot of them, drowned a few and put out tons of poison. And then we had big Toka lizards in the wall. I used to do away with them as well till I got a really big one that I let stay in the wall although he was really noisy, just above the bed. Hey I remember the time that one ran out of the wall and across the ceiling till it lost traction and fell straight down on top of my sleeping girl friend. She wasnt sleeping long and I poked a good size hole in it and threw it outside. That reminded me of one of my first sights of death. When I was a small kid, we visited these people in the country and while in the barn this mouse ran out and tried to get away but the one fellow who lived there had chopped his foot with a wood splitting ax and it was in a cast and he was on a crutch and he went thump in the corner with the end of his crutch with the rubber cap on the and he twisted that in the corner till little Herman was dead. It wasnt the last time I saw things get dead like lizards and frogs outside the back door in the night but it was a strange experience because at that age a mouse was a great think, could be a friend if you could speak its language and you really didnt want to kill them. Later you learned about things like rats and ugliness and that was different. My room now was too hot, not enough wind, not enough air and too much stuff, too many people. Only one window. But I had added sun net outside and lots of plants so that the approach was cooler and hoped that helped a little plus I screaned in the porch so I could leave the door open. The toilet drain for the room above was now broken and so the bad water came down onto my porch in little bits and it didnt matter how often I told the owner but he still rented the room and still didnt fix it so I would need to do some repairs of my own till he had time to give it attention. The give a shit level of these people was mostly pretty low. They didnt much care what kind of sewer they lived next to, how much trash people threw on the roads or in the clongs. Ignorant at best but always babbling on about the lofty Thai culture. Anyway, I dont like Thai bashing as it gets boring after a while, I have things to do here and I ignore the most of it. Saga of the Itchies Nov 97 It started with a very wet august and moving out of air conditioning in to the guest house. First Blane got all bit up and a rash of red furiously itchy spots. Then after he left I got more and more heat itching spots. A single raised pore that itched. Then I got a couple of red spots in the groin and a number of red bumps on my thighs that itched and burned. Motorcycle riding made it worse with prolonged sweat on the legs. Add to that a couple of bus trips and you have the itch. My back door was unusually irritated as well. Then there was fungus on the 3 finger grouves and the arm pits as well. Then came clear water enlarged pours called deep seat blisters that rupture or get ruptured and infected. They develop more pores around them adding more water and more enflamed area of skin. Wonderful stuff. Get enough itching and the skin begins to creap. Then you get more raised itching bumps like scabies but I thought they werent. My diet is fat enough but not enough fruit and vegies. Then there are all kinds of skin growths, as well resembling warts, low profile masses, lots of them. In the end I found out I did have scabies on the hands and elsewhere and that I had a very nasty reaction to them. Once I was to the US and got them knocked out everything got better slowly but better lay off the motorbike long rides during the height of the rainy season when you are already a little stressed and a little bit run down. 1,000 baht girl at door One night there was a stout knock at the door. A man stood there in the dark, he had a girl with him. He said, " You want this girl, you pay 1000 baht". I laughed, as it was so late and so bazaar. No I hadn't ordered a girl, he abruptly turned away, leaving me to wonder what that was all about. The Riverside Guest House: Known for good food, lots of Thais ate there, but the place was a little queer. Remember an event from here. The House across the road: The house across the road had been a place of idle men for some time but now after six years it was increasingly busy, first aluminum framed boxes with glass, now metal welded awning roofs. Was good to see that they could figure out what work was after so many years. For the most part Thailanders were unaware of the things that drive those of us who have to get something done and do not want to do it two or three times. Mud of the Hill Surge protector didnt jus go . It was most difinitive. Had it chained in behind my 110 transformer and when I switched it on it went pop like your pacemaker explodiing in the microwave and ffffsssssssttttttt! with a big blast, and I mean BIG blast of dirty grew brown smoke shooting out of one of the sockets and skyward like a rewound toranado. Oh well. Fighting the heat and humidity. dont have an airconditioner yet but am looking to get one. Computesr grow fungus on the discs over here. Course it doesnt help to have a foot of water in the house I bet. Just a little water actually, the rest was mud. That was the second house. The hotel where I was staying, well the hillside sort of jumped off behind it and about two in the morning slammed into the back wall which is my bathroom aand about three feet from my sleepin nawggin. Really. Slammed. Just like a semi hitting the brakes in mud, and wallop as the whole thing accordians in like it would. Sept this was mud you see. And I dont have any idea what the mud was doing between the time it jumped off the mountain and 2 am when it slammed into my bathroom but I do know that it shot mud out of the drain onto the ceiling. Then other members of the party kept colliding with the wall like the I-5 grass fire massacre back at my home town in the usa and I got to hauling all my gear across linoleum that had become the top of some massive water bed. Course the mud was going out the front door before I got there. Near the Riverside Guest House At the end of the road by the Riverside Guest House is where they let the water into the klong and where they stacked up and sold the bamboo that was floated down out of Burma in Rafts. Past this point and past the Maesai Guest House on the river is where the drugs got sold and the unwise went there for any reason. Right next to the bamboo that was getting sold near the Riverside Guest House there was also a water pumping station for Maesai. But now they had begun building another one right where the water let out of the canyon at the borders edge just upstream from the Maesai Guest House. In this area of river from the canyon mouth to the pumping station they had a ferry that got poled across the river from the one side to the other. After the war the Burmese had put in a pill box on their side, three actually. And it was also here in the river where the burmese dived and scooped sand off the bottom and filled the metal boats and then loaded it off into trucks either on the Thai or the Burmese side. Critters Two Owls two owls, were supposed to be a meal at the market so I bought them and kept them a couple of days before letting them go. Tokas Lizard A lizards life must be like a tree growing slowly, patient as God, waiting for bugs, eggs at maturity but not much else to do but police the limbs of a tree or the weeds for bugs and soak up the sun light every day. Or could a lizard be the trees heart with legs walking around? turquoise lizards These are the fast running lizards that set on the roofs of the rooms or are running up the tree, sometimes you notice them because they fall off in the clong. Once there was this one small one which had caught a moth and then this big one noticed and came to take it away, but at the same time an Akha woman noticed the event on the trunk of the tree there near the road and yelled at the big lizard to leave the little lizard alone. The Big Lizard This big lizard just fell out of the tree into the clong. One of those running lizards which make their heads turquoise to attract insects like a flower, could be one possibility or when they are in lust or angry. Swam to shore in disgust and back up the tree. Big catfish, turtle They used those batteries floating on innertubes, then hoops with wire on polls to put the electricity in the water and drive the fish. They caught this meter long catfish and a turtle all the same day. A good sized turtle. Sometimes the little ones hatched out and all came down the river same day. The kids along the bridge would catch them. They also tried to catch the little catfish in the shallows under theb bridge. owl in my room Had this big white owl in my room. Its wing healed, didn't like to eat much and then one night during a rain and fog I held it out over the railing of room 28 in the dark and it spread its wings and took off gracefully into the dark night. Rats I checked on the turtles. Maybe they knew about rats. They were already dug into the soft dirt. But the rats, if they liked turtles, would dig them out and eat them anyway. I think rats were apposers, apposing anything good that you might want or not want to see happen. Gabriel had that problem with a friend of rats too. Salvage Wood The owner of the guest house got lots of bits of salvaged wood from somewhere. Among this were wooden shakes for the roof. Must have been a really old building when they used wooden shakes around here. Everything was tile or aspestos now. So he had the workers carefully brush and scrub them in the klong and then they went up on the roofs of new rooms including mine. Looked nice and moss and little orchids grew there but it added to my sense that the whole place was a fire trap waiting to happen. This much dry wood in one place, heck if it ever caught fire youd be able to see the flames for miles. Sailom Joi Sailom Joi had sort of become a final pit stop for the Akha heading up the river. At a noodle stand up the road on the left, thatched awning a few benches, and they cluster around baskets ont he ground something to eat. Foiur other Akha women are walkin by with baskets and one girl with a bangkok bag and bangkok look is taking her jewelry off and handing it to one Akha woman her mother possibly and then they keep on walking. A working girl returning to her village. Her sould not half of what the other women are but her body coiffed like a bilboard for hire. Checkered scarves of blues, reds and aqua. Sailing The large man jumped on the girl once again, pumping her across the mattress to where her one arm hung free from the bed, which suited her just fine. While he pursued his desire which he felt he had now cornered, she tried to tell with her agile fingers which ones were the big five hundred baht notes as she groped at his wallet in the pocket of his trousers at the side of the bed. The man finally caught whomever he had been after and passed off to sleep as she got up and showered. With her face turned up in a pugnaciously powdered white pout she climbed into her cheap high black strap shoes and clattered out of the room and down the walk in a horrible mismatch of frumpy synthetic colors as she banged off to her next sordid flatback acquisition of money. Not even a computer job and nice clothes in Bangkok paid this good. The man, drifting on the still heat of his distant dreams, looked dimly across the sea from his tattered ship at what appeared to be a sleek schooner like the one he sailed as a lad and for a moment he felt the sadness so clearly. The one shot shotgun pistol The security guards had this. Both of those guys died of AIDS They had holes drilled in all the rooms which they used to look at the busy guests with. Construction at plaza guest house During the hay day the workers came all the time building new rooms, doubled the size of the place, then they just barely maintain it now. Not hardly any customers, and the rooms are dirty and full of lizards, roaches, rats. The signs well painted with pictures The old chinaman had these hill tribe pictures painted, big, with different languages advertising his guest house. Washing shingles in the clong Guest house owner found them somewhere, saved everyone that he could for construction on the guest house, burmese guys scrubbing each teak shingle in the clong water carefully. Boards cut by hand at guest house used in a deck or un-uniform high and low ones Lots of these in the guest house, one came to find out how valuable the old lumber was. Tin Roofs I like old rusty corrogated tin roofs, scattered leaves, hot, bent up in the tropical sun and a brown as only rust knows. Universal to the world of make do. bent, burnt, and reused, hauled away by some old junk collector, rolled up and tied bouncing on his shoulder with the sun showing through all the holes in it left from nails. More than once nailed to a building long gone, a secret guardian of mans past pursuits and voice. Throat infection Nasty throat infedction Ive had. And by far the worst illness of any kind while away from the states. I tried tetracycline for two dayse the ampicillan 250 for one day the last night 500 mg. At two am in a deep chill I woke sleepless, boiled some water and drank some milo and another 500 mg then I plunged into a very deep fever shorwded sleep, my body the scene of a deep bio battle. When I awoke at 8 am steam was pouring throught the cracks in the blankets. Evertime I have had a fever I feel refreshed afterwards and as though Ive shed any hint of mind shadow or dullness. The Pump The little green diaphram pump bapped away down stairs. They only lasted so long while they pumped water up to the tanks of concrete on the hill above the guest house rooms. Then they went dead and occasionally I took one of the pulleys off a dead one and made a metal dye for casting silver. Hadnt done any of that in a while. Crosses Wonder what became of all the crosses. Sometimes life is fresh and things are good. Havent made any crosses as gifts in a long while. Mostly just trying to make it to get the next project done, the next cash, the next kid to the doctor, a fraction of those who dont make it. Trash I got mad because she didnt empty the trash but she smiled anyway, after she got done crying, and washed my clothes. Good lord didnt give these people short fuses thank goodness. Bullet Strikes There was a day long battle with the trapped shans across the river from us. Bullets and grenades flew, bazookas fired, lots of noise. Three or four of us were way up on the top guest house balcony leaning on the concrete railing wall of the steps and somewhat behind one jackfruit tree, looking at the distant battle going on, when I saw spray shoot from the tree and a bullet buried itself in the concrete wall inches below my friends belly. Another inch higher and it would have skipped up into his chest. Like it was all too late, he jumped back. He still lives at the guest house. He was gone for several years and now came back a year or so ago. Night owls and bats pass by. The Two Paintings There were these two paintings that hung in the guest house for years. I finally rescued them when they got taken down. One was of an Akha man smoking a tobacco pipe and the other was of two Akha women. ********* Railing Table Jan 1, 1999 It has been many years that I have sat at this first table along the railing, looking over the klong and the new improved road. This the 1st of January 1999. The second day of January every yaer is my brother's birthday. The Akha all turn a year older at the same time at the year end festival. My hopes for 1999 are that the writing work will be better supported, writing Akha books that is, that more medical work will get done, that there will be more supplies for medicine etc. As of today none of the writers are paid up. There are three. One elder and a teacher also. This makes life difficult for me. These people do not have big reserves and when their pay dries up so does the motivation to write. Writing in some ways should be self supporting but that is only a dream now. Due to the fact that Akha is a tonal language there are few people who have the ear to mark it correctly. Until I have a very large corpus of Akha writing and some rules for marking tone, I am in this position. Basically it requires having a huge dictionary. And so I struggle along drawing $50 from here, $50 from there, waiting for $20 but getting only $10, that kind of thing. There is exceeding much work to do and a fair amount of money needed to get it all done. In some areas I continue to make good progress but I am not sure if those make up for all the setbacks. ****** Paper Airplanes The door opened and he stepped out and chucked the paper airplane as if in flight and then his guard completely down in his boyish adventure he spotted me as I had just come up the steps to the top of the landing and with an "Oh!" he went inside and closed the door, an older Japanese man at the guest house who was the boy friend of Moh Moh Geeh. He had thrown them all over the guest house for months, littering the roofs and sidewalks. He made them in his room, pitching them from the balcony. Carefully cut and glued together pieces of paper. Sometimes he tied fire crackers together with mosquito coil for a fuse delay mechanism and placed them near people's room, a true prankster. We called Moh Moh Geeh the Burmese Broom Hilda. ******* Burmese Girl She was a big burmese woman, she really liked to go at it all night long, not like the hookers, least that is what the japanese man with the glasses said. ******* Owner's Son The death of Guest House Owner's son in Auto wreck in Bangkok. He had gone to the US to study. ******** Silver Drops From out of the cabin window all I could see was the silver geometric design of the shingles and the dripping of water off their tips which reminded me of taking oil drip readings on the great compressors in the navy on the air craft carrier enterprise. We had to count how many drips came down the wire in a minute, usually 3 to 6. Then we marked this in the log. You could see the wires through a glass, it was all inside water, and this oil lubricated the compressor cylinders. *Meeh Nyah Meeh Nyah was an Akha girl from Burma. Her mother was dead and she supported her elderly father. I first met her at the guest house in Maesai where I lived. She was very sick and I took her to the hospital. She had come to Maesai to meet her Japanese boyfriend who was coming soon after. He never did. Five years and waiting. Actually I admired her. She made it on her own. No family to support her or return to and somehow she held herself together. She sorted her customers out I supposed. I wondered how girls made it like that, never knowing how they would be treated, but somehow she did manage. She got herself a room in maesai eventually. She did her work there and elsewhere. She was intuitive and always had some cash in her pocket of late. She had dreams to have a business, to save her money, to be able to make money enough at something else that she didnt have to do that. People always say that these girls shouldnt do that sort of work, but I wondered how else they could make it. At least they called the shots most of the time, better than working for some slob who paid nothing and still was all hands. She was headed south, needed to pay for the ride, came to the guest house and disappeared up stairs with the driver for a while, then with a look half between guilt and deviousness she disappeared down the road to bangkok. She came back one other time, with boxes of this and that tinsel that she had bought for friends, like a child for the first time in the big city, but no one to really look out for her. She would stop by when she came to town and sometimes I would see her on the arm of this man or that walking near the bridge. I wondered how they emotionally could make all the changes all the time. I wasnt so sure these women were all prostitutes at heart. They wanted freedom, a life too. There were plenty of Akha girls in Maesai who were spending all the time they could on the dark side, they never seemed to gain any ground and they were always so clever they thought. Course you really couldnt tell from looking in but I sometimes thought that the wiser ones got married early on, cut their deals and made the best of it. Those who didnt couldnt fair much better, time and too many customers took their toll. But they felt in control and kept on, new motorbikes, fancy clothes and time to burn. But they got very old, very fast. Something one had to watch for at least five years to see how it played. Sometimes they went a long ways down in six months. I wondered if Meeh Nyah would do any better. *Ymm Boeuh Ymm Boeuh had a wife in San Chai. His kids from that marriage grown. Then he remarried and lived with a woman in Burma, she was from the mission village in Keng Tung. Their house was just outside of Tachilek. San Chai was Nimit's village. He told how one addict fell over dead at nimits and nobody did anything, just carried on. Didn't even flinch. The family finaly came and got the body. One time he and I were walking in the cemetary near to his village and he told me how one time three Burmese army soldiers raped a 12 or 13 year old girl from his village and she died. The mother was already dead. Some how it got to the police and the men had to pay 10,000 baht each or something like that. Maybe it was so it didnt get to the police. But being police in Burma doesnt stand for anything good. Like the time the guy in a coffee shop in Keng Tung introduced himself and said he was the Ex Police Chief for all that Keng Tung area and that now he owned a guest house and "please trust and believe him". It was laughable. What would a police chief in Keng Tung have for a track record? 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